The Past

Usually, I start things when I have reached the end of one chapter but this blogspot is not the case. Well maybe deep down, it actually is.

My past is full of change; I was born in Novosibirsk, Russia in the warm season of August. I remember little bits of my life in Russia before my small family consisting of my mother father & I, packed what little belongings we had, and moved to New Zealand in September 1995. I was raised on the beach, spent all my time in the outdoors, exploring whatever I could when I was allowed the freedom. I would say I was quite a content child. I've always enjoyed the simple things in life.

At fifteen, I lost interest in school, started to experiment in recreational drugs, snuck out of my house every weeekend for 6 months before I was caught. I fell for the typical teenage heartbreaker: he was a liar, a cheater but he was also my first. Everyday, I turned more & more away from everyone in my life, thinking this boy was my life. He started to become controlling, became extremely forceful and I kept choosing this unhappiness everyday because I was stuck in the bubble of false beliefs and love.

August 2006, my parents announced we were moving to Perth, Western Australia in 6 months time so say good bye to C. I hated them. I thought they were ruining my life but it turned out to be one of the best decisions they made for me (amongst many).

Sure, it was hard to leave my childhood friends who I have come to realise, are replaceable. But it really taught me to stand on my own two feet & face the world on my own. It's hard, trying to make new friends at the age of 16 when everyone has their close knit of friends. I used to have that & that's something rare to find.

Living in Perth two years later, I love my life. I love the warm weather, being at the beach more than half of the year. As much as I complain about the heat, I prefer it over the four seasons a day in Auckland.

I still miss Auckland every day. My friends, my family, the black sand beaches, all the green-ness, surf life saving, the oldness of it all so it's something I can look forward to everyday because going back now, I appreciate it so much more.

I try not to take my life for granted. I am so lucky to have been given so many chances. As much as my parents and I don't gett along majority of the time, they are the reason my life is so good right now & I'm going to keep it this way ♥

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